Salamalaykum, peace upon to you. Yes you. You know what? Moving on is not a simple task. Moving on is like leaving the sweet memories you used to cherish before, leaving the things that used to play in your mind about them and completely leaving the one who you used to love. Its hard kan? Its not as simple as breathing for normal people. It is not. I repeat. Not.

Actually I am talking about me. Yeah me, not you this time. I know I've got to move on. But as I said lah kan, its hard. Lebih-lebih lagi leaving the one you used to like for years. Nope it won't be easy. I like him before I knew what was love back then. And scarily, I knew love - from human to human, through him. I know it seems childish, you know, that ayat just now but I'm afraid its the truth. Ugh. The fact that I've got to move on is bothering me. Really. But I'm working hard on it. 

Previously, I'm busy with things like dealing with SPM, laughing with mates, caring for those who have close relationship to me. So I didn't think much about him. Now that I'm home, no mates, SPM was done, and no relationship anymore, I suddenly miss him, the long lost ex before my ex. The unusual text he sent me. The way he treat me. The memory we shared. I'm currently craving for that. But by stalking his social site, looks like he doesn't need me anymore. I don't really like that statement but its the truth mehhh. I cannot change the fact. Ugh, screw that.

Takpelah, what done is done. Pandai buat pandai tanggung, Nur Alia. I need to be strong. To get a better him, I need to be a better muslimah, isn't? In sha Allah. Btw, I sincerely hope for a love after marriage. Much more blessed by Allah SWT.