Salamalaykum, hi. Today I'm officially knew that I sucks in relationship. I just can't handle all those attention they needed, the feelings, the crap they want from me, I just can't. I leave him, actually we both did. I got tired of him and maybe he did too. Well it's great that the fact we both felt that way. No one got hurt. Okay I do get hurt for a while but now, I'm fcking hurtless. I've got to admit it is soooooo hard to move on after a move on I did a few weeks ago but I'm awesome, I am actually did it. Yes I really like to please myself mind me. Not to mention it is damn hard to act like you were fine but inside, a war had happened. Now I'm home and if I don't act like I'm fine and burst into tears, my parents would maybe ask me and I don't want to explain this and that. My father would kill him if he knew what a damaged he'd done to my heart. Oh ayat. Luckily I'm strong enough to kill this pain inside. Like I said, I'm awesome.

At first, it's difficult for me to just run away and forget those problems between us. Every single night, we've been there texting, knowing each other. I got attached to you. Texting you is a daily routine for me. But that is the problem with getting attached to someone. When they leave and ignore you, you just feel lost. The first time you did it, I got lost and it made my feelings for you just shattered into tiny little pieces. Then you asked for another chance and I gave it although my feelings for you at that time was zero. Z-E-R-O. You got through your ego so I ask myself why shouldn't I gave him a chance. Lets see how he do it this time. Result? Nothing change. You will always act like that. Asking for more and more and more attention. Like hello if you want that much attention go have a relationship with your mother. Don't be such a dick, I'm not your wife. So that's it. We're done. After a few break ups, now we're totally done.

Btw, I prefer calling my feelings for you before is too much likeness, not love. You came to me when I have nothing except loneliness and wounds. So I accepted you and congratulation, that just made it to my list of the worst nightmare so why not give yourself a clap. Tipulah kalau kata tak rindu. Memang, sometimes I start to miss you and then I realize how sad you made me and then I start to hate you again. And when I hate, you can become anything. Pig, piglet, cow, dog, anything baby. Hehe I'm that sarcastic, people.

K broken-heart healed. I try not to involve in any relationship because it is proved I suck in this kind of  things. Relationship after relationship after another just proved it. I rest my case. I'm going single as long as I can. Eh bunyi nya macam banyak peminat, ye dok. Lol who cares. Now if you excuse me, I got a cat to love. Introducing Szali, as known as chika. Love you baby muah.